Where do I start? This has been one hell of a week!
(issa little long)
Busy as always, hot but not hot as hell yet, testing, educational, stressful but overall fun!
More and more positive about all of this as each week passes!
My baby girl Kandis texts me every couple of days like clock work seeing how I am doing, and asking how things are going. This week one of her texts had an extra question in it...she asks “Is it snowing in Africa yet?” She, later on in the convo proceeds to give me an update on how the weather is at home (Kentucky).
All I could think was 'thank you God, I miss winter this year!’ (LoL!)
My sarcastic ass responds with
‘Snow. Ha!’ And then I actually respond to the first set of questions.
“What’s going on?? You been real busy?“
So these questions lead me to share my week and a synopsis of my first few weeks being here in Africa.
“Are you real busy?” Yes, everyday I work about 10 hours and could easily work 12 but I don’t because... I just will not do that everyday, but most importantly I can not afford to get sick, hurt or exhaust myself from work that I have to report and do daily even if I get sick. I am a one person deep spot doing the jobs of like 6 people and to be honest, that may be underestimation.
This is not an exaggeration either.
Not only that I am the highest ranking individual in my area which makes me by default the section lead, so I manage three different sections as well.
No, I’m not going in to detail what ALL I do because it’s just too damn much to type, some will understand some won’t. Just know I’m busy as hell.
Any who, lets move in on the “what’s been going on” question.
So my office hours are M-F 8a-5p Sat 8a-12p.
My office hours and my working hours are not the same by any means (LoL!)
I work 8a-7p mostly during the week and 8a-2p most Saturdays ... Notice I keep throwing in this word MOSTLY.
7pm turns to 8 or 9 quickly and 2 on Saturday turns in to 5 quickly as well.
I don’t even look or walk in the vicinity of my office on Sundays because it is my OFF DAY!
But that’s a quickie of how my working hours on a daily go.
It gets frustrating very easily because I’m a Planner and here I can’t plan my days, I can’t schedule times or even gauge times that my carriers or contractors will arrive. We have designated lunch times so that NO DELIVERIES or CONTRACTORS will show up between 11a-1p and these MFers will call when they’re at the fXcking gate,
😤😤😤 you talking about HOTT! 😤😤😤
I be ready to flip out a few times a week because 1. The language barrier is horrible 2. I cannot turn them away 3. BXtch I’m hungry and trying to take a break!!! So most day my lunch break is all of 30 minutes and I end up working through the rest.
Oh! I didn’t mention the fact that I had to learn to drive a manual vehicle (5 speed/stick shift).
That’s hilarious all in itself, boyyyyy I Be fXcking that clutch up (sometimes).
(Yo I’m dying laughing thinking about it!)
In all seriousness , this past week was really trying, it was testing my gangsta, and my patience. My Supervisor and I had a communication issue, but a couple of days later we worked it out and everything is back on better grounds. I felt bad ... a little bit ... after talking to him later because he said “you said I offended you, insulted you and I don’t even know what I said. Now I feel like I don’t know how I should talk to you or approach you.”
Now I said I felt bad ONLY a little bit BECAUSE I should have controlled my emotions and I shouldn’t have walked out. I should have took a deep breath, filtered what I needed to say and communicated that I understand what he was trying to show and that I DID NOT need him to start over. Then I should have clarified my confusion in a tactful manner and allowed him to show me the rest, but my ass couldn’t get pass his tone and his body language. With that action came a follow on email... that made everything worse... on his part and validated MY FEELINGS and ACTIONS. Because this is where the insult came in .
Any who, After it was all said and done I could have really got in trouble and he could have gotten in a lot of trouble as well. To ease it all I spoke to my first shirt (who is like a liaison) and expressed how I felt about it all but that I didn’t think we needed any mediation because I know it was an overall communication issue. At this point between him and I, I felt like we could talk it out and work through it. And that’s what we did.
For those of you that know me and have known me for years that’s some GROWTH for that @ss for real! Like they say...
“cause the old me would have...” (LoL!)
No really I would have ran with trying to get that ass in trouble, and been like fXck it and kept it moving!
With that all being said, I’m constantly growing, working on myself, and I’ve come a long way from the little mean fiesty, quick to pop off, get you fired, first to throw a punch, no filter, tongue sharper than a razor, firecracker chick from Newburg. Now at least I’ll THINK about my response and reactions first... not saying that it’s always the right response still, but at least I try!
“Always be a better you than you were yesterday.”
Growth is optional, are you growing?
Until next time, my loves